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Post by SoltheGuilmon on Apr 6, 2017 10:14:41 GMT -5
"I wish I could say he won't," Theos said his ears back. "Even if I did you know the truth. You know a wise bird once told me "a story is a story. It is what you make it; for every villain in a story there is a reason. For every hero a childhood that made him. There is more to everything than what meets the eye. A storyteller only tells one of many truths. Take from the story the moral not so much the people. For names change but meanings do not."
"The moral of that story.... Wicked deeds lead to destruction. Kindness while a boon to must is a curse to the wielder and even the noblest of deeds can bring forth sadness."
Don crossed his arms and hung his head, "Kindness is a curse, I know. You're the biggest example of that. Everything you've ever gone through and still you smile. I can't even imagine what you psyche must be like. I think because we all know your past, we strive to pave a better future for you. Even at a grave cost of lives...I still haven't figured out why everyone you meet and befriend fight for you so strongly. Myself included I suppose. If I am being honest Theos...I like you, I really do."
Don began to chuckle a bit, "And I think Kemba is really really sexy and I am very jealous of his relationship with you, but, when it comes to you and my brothers. I put them first every time. If it comes down to it, I may be the only one who trades you for them. I don't mean to be cold-hearted about it, but it's the truth. I hope that doesn't worsen our relationship. You're still a brother to me...a very attractive brother...but a brother." Don tried to lighten up the mood a bit and faked a smile, hiding his sadness and bottling it up.
He turned his head back to Kaa, "What about Kemba? Has he awoken yet? Have you spoken to him at all?" Don attempted to change the mood of the conversation, this was becoming relatively difficult to talk about.
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Post by Dantelion on Apr 6, 2017 11:09:23 GMT -5
"Kindness is a curse, I know. You're the biggest example of that. Everything you've ever gone through and still you smile. I can't even imagine what you psyche must be like. I think because we all know your past, we strive to pave a better future for you. Even at a grave cost of lives...I still haven't figured out why everyone you meet and befriend fight for you so strongly. Myself included I suppose. If I am being honest Theos...I like you, I really do." Theos liked him as well. If he was being honest with himself though his mind was a lot different from when he came down those mountains. His psyche was very messed up and even he couldn't fathom why everyone liked him.
"And I think Kemba is really really sexy and I am very jealous of his relationship with you, but, when it comes to you and my brothers. I put them first every time. If it comes down to it, I may be the only one who trades you for them. I don't mean to be cold-hearted about it, but it's the truth. I hope that doesn't worsen our relationship. You're still a brother to me...a very attractive brother...but a brother." If didn't. Theos smiled a bit in understanding. In truth he would have much rather they done that from the beginning. Blakes death may have been set in stone like the others or it could have been the cruel fate of war.
"What about Kemba? Has he awoken yet? Have you spoken to him at all?" Theos shook his head.
"He was asleep when I woke. It looked like he needed it even if it was just for a bit so I left him be. I noticed his ears....I wish I had been awake to stop him," Theos said thinking back to his blurry memories of pain and fear. "He had used a black orb of magic. His speed tripled and caught us by surprise. I told Kaa to run and fetch your father but he refused to leave me." Theos gave a sad smile looking down. "So like him."
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Post by SoltheGuilmon on Apr 6, 2017 20:26:33 GMT -5
"He was asleep when I woke. It looked like he needed it even if it was just for a bit so I left him be. I noticed his ears....I wish I had been awake to stop him," Theos said thinking back to his blurry memories of pain and fear. "He had used a black orb of magic. His speed tripled and caught us by surprise. I told Kaa to run and fetch your father but he refused to leave me." Theos gave a sad smile looking down. "So like him."
"Magi said it was black magic. Purest evil and a rare essence of it. Magi's magic was powerless against it without his charms back in the palace. That was why he couldn't heal you completely or even save Kaa." Don reached out patting his brother's leg.
"I'll be taking care of him as long as he is asleep...and if he doesn't wake in time for our departure, I'll ask Ike to look after him. If he doesn't pull through, I want to give him the best funeral we can. Though Father says he plans to hold one after the war for all the lost souls. Blake included. I want us...his family, to hold a special one for Kaa."
Don stood and walked by his brothers side, "It's been a few hours since I relieved Kaa. Magi wants to make sure Kaa uses the rest room regularly." Don walked over to a bag of supplies and pulled out a vial with some fluid and a needle.
"This stuff forces him to go. We can't have his bladder filling and then releasing on its own making a mess. We're constantly filling him with water so we need to flush Kaa while he is comatose. Unless you want to be here for that, maybe you should go back with Kemba. Not sure how Kaa would feel if he wakes up and finds out you watched him pee in a bottle." Don chuckled and walked over to Kaa looking at Theos.
"He can be self-conscious...though then again, this is you were talking about. Still, we've never actually been uh...naked...in front of you. If you want to stay and help, it's your choice. I can do it myself, but I won't stop you either." Don then made a mischievous expression and looked at Theos.
"I bet you're curious to see Kaa's member. Kemba may seem insufficient if you do. Hue hue hue!" Don's laugh was clearly intended as a tease, but it was obvious he was trying to further lighten the dreary mood from moments ago.
"If you plan on helping, you can bring the bottle, if not I'll catch ya later Theos. Thanks a lot for talking with me...I don't feel as bad anymore. I guess this is why everyone talks too you. You just make things easier...and better."
Don's expression then turned into a glare, "And don't go talking to Ike about any of this okay? I don't need him knowing about my feelings and getting scared off!"
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Post by Dantelion on Apr 6, 2017 20:46:52 GMT -5
"I'll be taking care of him as long as he is asleep...and if he doesn't wake in time for our departure, I'll ask Ike to look after him. If he doesn't pull through, I want to give him the best funeral we can. Though Father says he plans to hold one after the war for all the lost souls. Blake included. I want us...his family, to hold a special one for Kaa." Theos silently agreed not wanting to dwell on the possibility.
"It's been a few hours since I relieved Kaa. Magi wants to make sure Kaa uses the rest room regularly." Theos cocked his head.
"This stuff forces him to go. We can't have his bladder filling and then releasing on its own making a mess. We're constantly filling him with water so we need to flush Kaa while he is comatose. Unless you want to be here for that, maybe you should go back with Kemba. Not sure how Kaa would feel if he wakes up and finds out you watched him pee in a bottle." Theos chuckled as well.
"He can be self-conscious...though then again, this is you were talking about. Still, we've never actually been uh...naked...in front of you. If you want to stay and help, it's your choice. I can do it myself, but I won't stop you either." That was true. While they had bathed together they never had actually seem one another's privies.
"I bet you're curious to see Kaa's member. Kemba may seem insufficient if you do. Hue hue hue!" Theos raised a brow.
"If you plan on helping, you can bring the bottle, if not I'll catch ya later Theos. Thanks a lot for talking with me...I don't feel as bad anymore. I guess this is why everyone talks too you. You just make things easier...and better."
"And don't go talking to Ike about any of this okay? I don't need him knowing about my feelings and getting scared off!"
"Cross my heart," Theos said chuckling. "I think I'll go see if Kemba is awake. If he is an I'm gone he may try running around looking for me," Theos stood back up with a faint grunt. "I'll talk to you more later."
Theos headed out of the tent and back towards the one he had come out of. The sun was shining as it always was in a desert and a faint dry wind stirring the sand. The desert felt unchanged despite everything. Theos ducked into the tent looking to Kemba wherever he might be.
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Post by SoltheGuilmon on Apr 6, 2017 21:25:07 GMT -5
As Theos walked in, Kemba was still where he left him. Next to the imprint Theos left behind. His ears looked so sore and the pink flesh was swollen from his claws. His armor next to their bed was filthy and stained with dry blood. Kemba was bandaged on his stomach from where he was bitten. His sheath had two stitches from where the bastard had cut him.
His soft snoring was testament of his exhaustion, his and Theos food sat on a table. It was two pieces of bread with butter. One cup of water and one bowl.
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Post by Dantelion on Apr 6, 2017 21:44:48 GMT -5
Theos looked at the food a moment contemplating wither he should eat or not. He didn't feel hungry however he would do no one any good by starving himself. He slowly ate and drank watching the nurses. Finally he stood back up and limped over to Kemba and tried to get back in bed. He couldn't hop up though his one back leg to injured for him to put wait on. If he backed up and did it with three it would be alright but he would jar the bed and wake Kemba. And he didn't want to do that.
Theos settled for laying by the door watching the soldiers outside. His one wounded leg out straight. He lay his head down slowly his ears twitching at the noises even as he slowly drifted back to sleep.
Endless sand in every direction and yet it felt familiar. There was no land marks but he was just walking and walking and walking. Where was he going? The sky was lit up with stars on a pitch black canvas. One star stood out brighter than the rest and he jumped for it. He fell back though his feet bouncing off the sand and pushing him higher with each jump. Until his jumps began to feel like he was falling. His world tilted as he hit the ground wishing for the jumps to stop so his feelings of falling would go away.
Theos woke before hitting the ground from above the clouds. His heart was beating quickly but it was starting to slow. It was just a dream. A few hours had passed and Theos sat up stretching slightly before starting to lick his mane.
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Post by SoltheGuilmon on Apr 6, 2017 22:46:54 GMT -5
Kemba was awake this time when Theos would look to him. He was laying on his back staring at the top of their tent. His eyes un-moving as his mind went back to the battle. He had been up for a bit, as his ears could be a testament too. Kemba hadn't scratched them again, but they were swollen. He had been holding them tightly against his head. His fur had become so spread over the puffed skin.
"I keep hearing that noise...of Blake's throat being cut open...hearing him choke...seeing his face. I can't make it stop..." Kemba said to Theos, still not moving his head.
"Why didn't I try evolving? I just...froze..." Kemba bit his bottom lip and gripped the sheets.
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Post by Dantelion on Apr 7, 2017 6:07:44 GMT -5
"I keep hearing that noise...of Blake's throat being cut open...hearing him choke...seeing his face. I can't make it stop..." Theos looked down and slowly stood from his grooming and limped over.
"Why didn't I try evolving? I just...froze..." Theos jumped full force onto the bed with three legs. It rocked a bit and Theos sat beside Kemba. Binding in to lick st his swollen ear a moment before responding.
"You had already un-evolved. Even if you tried you wouldn't have been able to beat him. He was much too strong and us...much too weak. Everyone looks to me Kemba. The triplets look to me; you look to me even Cora looks to me sometimes. I look to Magi but he can't do everything for me. I hate being weak when so many lives are on my shoulders. Including Blakes," Theos said wondering how Kilgath would or was taking the news.
"We won the battle Kemba and the forces have retreated. Our cost was great but I am pretty sure Blake wouldn't want us sad. Just like Jared and Dan. Heck he'd probably be like lets celebrate with wine or sake and women," Theos chuckled thinking of him.
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Post by SoltheGuilmon on Apr 7, 2017 8:34:47 GMT -5
Kemba immediately felt a little better with Theos next to him, flinching and cringing as his mate's soft tongue went over his sore ear. It twitched in response.
"You had already un-evolved. Even if you tried you wouldn't have been able to beat him. He was much too strong and us...much too weak. Everyone looks to me Kemba. The triplets look to me; you look to me even Cora looks to me sometimes. I look to Magi but he can't do everything for me. I hate being weak when so many lives are on my shoulders. Including Blakes,"
Kemba's stare continued, but his expression saddened.
"We won the battle Kemba and the forces have retreated. Our cost was great but I am pretty sure Blake wouldn't want us sad. Just like Jared and Dan. Heck he'd probably be like lets celebrate with wine or sake and women,"
Kemba closed his eyes and turned to look at Theos, "That is just it Theos...I had rested enough that I think I could have managed to evolve if even for a short while. If I had, perhaps it would have been enough time for Cora to arrive. I could have saved him...but...I froze because I thought...what if I can't survive? What if that monster guts me instead? Then I can't marry and be with Theos." Kemba clenched the sheets at his remembrance.
"So...instead of trying to do anything...I did nothing at all...and saw the most awful sights. Heard the horrible things and that is going to remain with me for my whole life. What is worse is...I haven't shed a tear for Blake...because I am relieved that it wasn't me who died. I can be with you longer and that feeling...has lessened Blake's death for me. I feel guilty that I didn't at least try and save him. Now we're without a friend...and Kilgath is without a son."
Kemba's stare looked deep into his thoughts, despite himself staring into Theo's chest. "The more I focus on the why I didn't...the less guilty I begin to feel...because he's dead, I am still at your side. Why do I have to be this way? Blake's life was important too...so why am I okay with it? I'm horrible." Kemba clenched the sheets.
"We didn't even tell him about our engagement...I'm a bad digimon."
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Post by Dantelion on Apr 7, 2017 9:09:26 GMT -5
"That is just it Theos...I had rested enough that I think I could have managed to evolve if even for a short while. If I had, perhaps it would have been enough time for Cora to arrive. I could have saved him...but...I froze because I thought...what if I can't survive? What if that monster guts me instead? Then I can't marry and be with Theos." Theos had no words. He would have gutted Kemba along with him. Even Theos knew that; look what he did to Kaa for simply attacking him. Without Theos Kemba's power would have been weaker and in his tired state probably next to nothing for that demon.
"So...instead of trying to do anything...I did nothing at all...and saw the most awful sights. Heard the horrible things and that is going to remain with me for my whole life. What is worse is...I haven't shed a tear for Blake...because I am relieved that it wasn't me who died. I can be with you longer and that feeling...has lessened Blake's death for me. I feel guilty that I didn't at least try and save him. Now we're without a friend...and Kilgath is without a son." Theos understood. He was also relieved it wasn't Kemba. Though he still felt sad about it all. Nlake had died because of a war for his sake. Blake defended him of his own free will but it was
"The more I focus on the why I didn't...the less guilty I begin to feel...because he's dead, I am still at your side. Why do I have to be this way? Blake's life was important too...so why am I okay with it? I'm horrible." Kemba clenched the sheets.
"We didn't even tell him about our engagement...I'm a bad digimon."
"No you aren't a bad digimon," Theos responded. "You are a digimon. I wonder how many digimon out there; Soldiers who also feel relieved that their names haven't been marked as dead. I hate that Blake is dead but I am also relieved you are safe. I wonder what I would have done if you had died instead. Would I have fled from this place and try to forget everything? Would I be so angry that I wouldn't rest until Scomparsa and the mines are buried ten feet underground? Would I have wallowed in self pity so deep I would cry myself to sleep every few days and refuse to eat? No matter how I look at it this....this is better. I am just as awful," Theos sadly said.
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Post by SoltheGuilmon on Apr 7, 2017 15:27:13 GMT -5
"No you aren't a bad digimon," Theos responded. "You are a digimon. I wonder how many digimon out there; Soldiers who also feel relieved that their names haven't been marked as dead. I hate that Blake is dead but I am also relieved you are safe. I wonder what I would have done if you had died instead. Would I have fled from this place and try to forget everything? Would I be so angry that I wouldn't rest until Scomparsa and the mines are buried ten feet underground? Would I have wallowed in self pity so deep I would cry myself to sleep every few days and refuse to eat? No matter how I look at it this....this is better. I am just as awful," Theos sadly said.
Kemba remained silent a moment. Thinking on Theos words.
"It's better for everyone around us to die, so long as we live. Our happiness...is what matters the most." Kemba raised his head and looked at Theos.
"That is what we both feel essentially...isn't it. What are we even doing Theos? Is this fair? To everyone? Trying to live with them...and ultimately being okay with their deaths over each others. That makes me feel...gross...but it is what my heart is saying."
Kemba reached out for Theos hoof, holding it in his palm.
"Will we just...be okay with Coraggio's demise...as long as both of us make it okay? Will their deaths...even effect us? I....just can't bring myself to weep for Blake. What if it is Ban again? Kaa? Cora? I'm scared we're becoming monsters. I want to care for them so strongly, yet..."
Kemba's voice trailed off letting his thoughts and words seep into his mind and Theos. Kemba affectionatly rubbed Theos's hoove with his thumb in the silence. He couldn't ignore the comfort he felt with Theos being here. It made what he experienced feel even further. Perhaps they should consider moving on. For everyone elses sake.
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Post by Dantelion on Apr 7, 2017 19:48:23 GMT -5
"It's better for everyone around us to die, so long as we live. Our happiness...is what matters the most." When said like that it did sound awful. However it was a natural feeling.
"That is what we both feel essentially...isn't it. What are we even doing Theos? Is this fair? To everyone? Trying to live with them...and ultimately being okay with their deaths over each others. That makes me feel...gross...but it is what my heart is saying."
It is gross....but natural to feel relieved at not dying. At not seeing your family die. If Kemba had died Kilgath would be sad but not sad enough to pass up the blessing of his son's life. He would look at Blake and feel relieved.
"Will we just...be okay with Coraggio's demise...as long as both of us make it okay? Will their deaths...even effect us? I....just can't bring myself to weep for Blake. What if it is Ban again? Kaa? Cora? I'm scared we're becoming monsters. I want to care for them so strongly, yet..."
"We aren't we are mortal digimon afraid to die. Our happiness isn't what matters most. It is however all we can do. Blake wouldn't want us to morn him," Theos looked at Kemba's paw.
"I refuse to live a life of sadness because of our enemies. I refuse to let me good memories be replaced with bad. But most of all I refuse to forget those smiles however brief. Because life is just like this desert and those smiles are the few droplets of rain we get to sustain us. I am sad Kemba....but I don't ever want to stop smiling. Because without those smiles we are just wandering a vast empty space slowly dying with nothing to life for or look forward to," Theos looked up into Kemba's eyes.
"I love you Kemba. I am glad you are safe and I am happy for those few memories we had with Blake. His teasing and his smile. His ability to drink and womanize and somehow always wake up with a smile on his face despite everyone else having hang overs," Theos chuckled. "The good outweighs the bad."
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Post by SoltheGuilmon on Apr 7, 2017 22:19:29 GMT -5
"We aren't we are mortal digimon afraid to die. Our happiness isn't what matters most. It is however all we can do. Blake wouldn't want us to morn him,"
Theos wasn't wrong. Blake would probably punch him if he found out they were trying to mourn his death. They were mortals and what mortal isn't afraid of death despite trying not to be?
"I refuse to live a life of sadness because of our enemies. I refuse to let me good memories be replaced with bad. But most of all I refuse to forget those smiles however brief. Because life is just like this desert and those smiles are the few droplets of rain we get to sustain us. I am sad Kemba....but I don't ever want to stop smiling. Because without those smiles we are just wandering a vast empty space slowly dying with nothing to life for or look forward to,"
That stare Theos gave, the emotions behind those beautiful eyes of his. It had sadness on their surface but past that Kemba saw hope, light and most importantly, love. It was what Kemba was hoping to see, to feel better. It never failed and always put a smile on his face.
"I love you Kemba. I am glad you are safe and I am happy for those few memories we had with Blake. His teasing and his smile. His ability to drink and womanize and somehow always wake up with a smile on his face despite everyone else having hang overs," Theos chuckled. "The good outweighs the bad."
"I'm glad we're both safe." Kemba smiled and chuckled gripping Theos's hoof in his palm tighter.
"He'd probably be with one of the nurses right now, flirting or mating...whatever came first. He'd not even care about his wounds. Though he never did, even after losing his arm. I bet his soul on the other side is claiming his death is just a flesh wound. Ha ha ha ha." Kemba couldn't help but laugh at the image. Blake was always a positive person.
"He'd definitely punch me hard for being so hard on myself." Kemba's gaze softened. "I'm sure Blake is happy right now, because he knows you and I are alive and well. That's just the kind of digimon he is. He would want what is best for us." Kemba moved his paw to caress Theos face.
"I really do have the best fiance don't I?" Kemba smiled, his depression and guilt seemingly lifted. Remembering Blake in such a positive light made all the difference. He just hoped he'd be able to forget the sight of his death.
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Post by Dantelion on Apr 7, 2017 22:37:41 GMT -5
"I'm glad we're both safe." Kemba smiled and chuckled gripping Theos's hoof in his palm tighter.
"He'd probably be with one of the nurses right now, flirting or mating...whatever came first. He'd not even care about his wounds. Though he never did, even after losing his arm. I bet his soul on the other side is claiming his death is just a flesh wound. Ha ha ha ha." Theos smiled a bit at the thought.
"He'd definitely punch me hard for being so hard on myself." Kemba's gaze softened. "I'm sure Blake is happy right now, because he knows you and I are alive and well. That's just the kind of digimon he is. He would want what is best for us." Theos
"I really do have the best fiance don't I?"
"Well you wouldn't have proposed if I wasn't," Theos said oh so humbly. He chuckled a bit. "You eaten your ration yet?"
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Post by SoltheGuilmon on Apr 7, 2017 23:41:26 GMT -5
"Well you wouldn't have proposed if I wasn't,"
Kemba chuckled with him, sitting up in his bed. "You eaten your ration yet?"
Kemba looked over to the bread and water, "I didn't have the stomach to eat, as you can see." Kemba looked back to Theos.
"Share it with me..." Kemba asked putting his nose to Theos. "I know you've eaten...but I want to share it."
Kemba reached for the bread and broke it unevenly, leaving Theos the smaller of the two pieces. "Even you can't say no if I take the larger piece right fatty?" Kemba laughed but he flinched reaching for his sore ears.
"Ahh...My ears...I guess my coping mechanism needs some work huh? heh heh." Kemba smiled and took a small bite of his bread.
"So...why weren't you in bed when I woke up? You were over there for a reason?"
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